Sequel

august 13, 2009

I said hold onto the moments... but sometimes holding onto those moments cause you to miss out on the current moment & you're stuck trying to relive the past. The trick is to find the solution--hold onto the memories while you move on and create more. 

I haven't quite figured out how to stop missing old times or how to remember them and cherish them but still focus more on the present. Its hard when the past was when I was completely happy..but I gotta keep reminding myself that there's more to come.

Also, I realized that its bad to go back on the things you said or did in the past. Even to wish you could go back and change those things. No matter how stupid I feel now, at the time when I say something or do something especially out of love, I meant it, so instead of denying it or beating myself up because I want to change it, I just have to own up, acknowledge that yes I said that, yes I did that and YES I meant it! So what! if now I wouldn't say those things or do those things? I have no control so there's no use wishing I could change it. Besides, like I said I meant the things I did and said--all the plans I made, all the hopeful thinking, I meant it; things change and "shit happens" don't get stuck trying to change it or regretting it.

I'm content with knowing that the people I love will get everything I have and I'll mean everything I say...definitely not going to change that. :)