Sept 7, 2009
This is another old one I wrote, right before graduation....interesting reading about it now that I am in college. Some of the fears are still present. New fears have arisen. Some disappeared. People have come and gone...or just left. and it all began a few months ago, all these changes. craziness.
I've always heard people talk about their senior year, but I never understood those feelings, i thought i did, but i really didnt until now..&& i know thats something everyone goes through, but damn its crazy!!....
i cannot believe that we are about to graduate, and be grown. i cannot believe that soon I will not be relying on my parents, that i am going to have to transition into relying just on myself. Maybe i'm a little behind in that aspect, i haven't really had to rely solely on myself...i've always had my parents...of course they will always be there, but now...its mainly up to me. weird.
&& a family of my own? woah what? yeah thats not in the immediate future, but its closer than it was yesterday!!
that is a weird feeling.
and i'll never again take a class at eielson, never again will have a locker, or ask to go to the restroom, or be told by mr fink that my shorts are too short!! oh the freedom.
but wow. im going to miss highschool. the sports, and the friends, and being together...sigh. especially the sports teams... all our memories... i cannot believe that i had my last volleyball season, basketball season, and now softball season. what the heck? what happened?!.
i feel like im ten still.
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